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[19 Feb 2010|01:49am] |
I blacked out again.
[Private]
I blacked out again. I can't explain it.
I remember going to my office, though when I came too, I was in a strip club on the strip. I had to have Max bring me a change in suit, and bring to his place so I could shower and clean up. Sadie would freak if I came home smelling like an exotic dancer.
The men are also looking at me different. Like something is wrong with me. What am I doing? Why do I always feel this fight in the back of my head. Where I feel like I'm straining to hold onto something that wants out. There is something deep and violent in me. I can feel it. Max told me, that I shot one of our guys dead for just second guessing me. Another one I slit his throat and let him bleed out on the warehouse floor, for bringing me bad news.
I don't remember any of this.
I don't get scared. But this scares me.
[/Private]
Cole. When you have a minute, come to the house. We need to talk.
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[10 Jan 2010|12:59am] |
My son was born last night. Vincent Ames.
He's bald like his dad.
Cute like his mom.
Sadie and I made one hell of a kid.
Though I could of gone with out the three broken fingers.
I am excited to start fucking a skinny version of my wife thought. When ever I can again...
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[24 Dec 2009|06:14pm] |
My sister is already annoying me tonight.
She wanted to bring that Irish lapdog, and I put my fucking foot down.
Though, I should of for that old bag of bones. Sadie's father is...
Fucking in-laws.
Stupid holidays.
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| Right after Sadie's journal post |
[01 Dec 2009|01:48am] |
[Rowan]
My wife needs a baby shower. Wanna take the honors, you're like her one and only true friend.
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| [04:00am Wednesday morning] |
[25 Nov 2009|05:39am] |
Ever had family at your house for the holidays that you completely hated.
It's called my father-in-law.
It's taken every ounce of my will not to kill him thus far. It's been only twelve hours.
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[07 Oct 2009|11:52pm] |
Craig.
We have business to talk.
I'll leave it up to you.
They're asking me how to decorate the hotel rooms to the casino. Fuck if I know.
[Craig]
I have a meeting. Is your dog done with his killing?
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[07 Apr 2009|10:52pm] |
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[Blocked: Sadie]
So, I went to the doctor and asked him tons of questions. I don't fucking get it. How does your wife not get pregnant, when you fuck her almost daily!? I mean it's not much of a chore to do it. I love it, no complaints. But we're trying reguardless to have a baby.
Though, I don't want Sadie to worry completely about me going to the doctor, and plus if it is me...I don't want her to know. Secrets...so as long as I could fix it before it's a real problem, we'll be good. Right?
Well, the doctor said my stress levels are to high. Which are obvious. Mentioned I eat like shit. Plus my smoking and drinking isn't helping. So here he says what I should do.
1) Not have sex. Which is bullshit.
2) Eat healthier. I eat just fine, damn it.
3) No more liquor, or cigars.
4) Stay out of saunas, and hot tubs
5) Relaxation. He told me to meditate...
This is a bunch of fucking bullshit.
...
I'm going to go meditate, and eat a fucking salad.
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[14 Mar 2009|06:54pm] |
It was my birthday yesterday. It was a good time, really. Sadie insisted we go out and celebrate, which was a good time too. I suppose I can say I have one hell of a wife. Talk about a forced marriage gone good. Who would of knew I would actually enjoyed being married to her.
Despite that, and being a year older. The project is going along smoothly. Craig and I spent some time scouting out where we wanted to put this fucking casino. Where at the start it's been a rough start, things are finally falling into place. We decided that we're building a new casino, instead of buying one and remodeling. Which is a good idea if you asked me.
On the point of the home front. Sadie and I searched out some houses. I found this really nice one. Which I would personally rather. It has a fence and is gated in. You know. Mob thing...security is everything. Though there is this other house I liked too, just not my top choice. Since Sadie and I are planning on having a child and everything. Her and the future baby come first.
[Craig]
So, when will you be back to stay? We have work to do.
Please tell me you're leaving that lapdog of yours in London too.
No, I don't mean Rowan.
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| Friday: Febuary 13th: 08:58pm California time |
[13 Feb 2009|07:58pm] |
So, Valentines Day is tomorrow.
I got something that is going to rock Sadie's socks right the fuck off!
[Blocked: Sadie, and who will spoil the surprise]
I spoke to my boy across seas, and he helped me get this pair of Dragonov's. Since, Sadie and I do have this thing for the firing range. She's quite good. I like to say not as good as me, but good.
So, I thought I'd get a his, and hers rifles. So we can shoot together.
Since this is a hobby for both of us. I thought it'd be a good idea.
Yes?
Oh, though I did get her something else too.
And I'm going to take her out for dinner.
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| Sunday: December 21st, 7:28 California. |
[21 Dec 2008|09:26pm] |
Hey. Sadie.
Dearest wife of mine. According to This kid. It is national Orgasm Day.
Care to celebrate?
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| Wednesday: December 17th, 4:00 California |
[17 Dec 2008|06:00pm] |
Went to the hospital today. Got my junk checked out. Tests and all that.
So far so good. I'm all clean.
Good thing. I can continue having sex with Sadie with our a condom.
Sadie, you want to go out and do something tonight?
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[15 Dec 2008|01:15am] |
Right after this.
[Private: Sadie]
Baby...when we were in that, unfaithful moment...did...you use protection?
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| Sunday: December 14th, Evening |
[14 Dec 2008|05:45pm] |
[Blocked: Sadie]
Strange turn of events. Needless to say I'm not sleeping alone. Strange really. One moment I was yelling at her. She was yelling at me. Then I'm dragging her through the fucking house. I felt like killing her. I did. Might of did it too if we didn't go to the grocery store.
What is it about grocery stores that makes people shut up and stop fighting. We shopped, and talked.
Actually talked. Weird.
Though through the talking...weird...I told her I loved her.
[Private: To those Jake trusts. Blocked: Still Sadie]
Then there was an explosion of sexual tension. The second we got home. We were fucking. We fucked in the office. Then moved to my...actualy. Our room. And fucked some more. We stayed there the rest of the night, and most of the next morning.
Just different. Not expected.
But, she's proably pregnant. She not on anything, and we didn't use a condom once.
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